27 September 2006
my summer has followed a weird trajectory...intense work/friend environment in new york: compressed. then bursts of travel around the US, friends, family: refracted. back to spain with visitors: hectic. two weeks waiting for work: a slow dragging finale.
summer ended quickly, as it always does. it pulled the rug out from under me...everybody asked "are you ready to go back?" i dont know if i'm ever ready for anything, i just do it. after having so many plans, trying hard to experience each one and not just check them off, yet somehow breezing through the months of july and august without a feeling of accomplishment or productivity, i have now ground to an expectant halt with my head spinning.
i'm trying to be productive but am increasingly self-aware, making it impossible. next week work starts again and i think the structure will be good for me. a new trajectory.
today's question: am i moving in forward-moving cycles? or tail-chasing circles?
photo by stib